Things I was reminded of while watching Inside Out...

Riley and I are not so different. I moved lots, and my childhood mantra was "Don't worry; Be happy." I have dealt with and continue to deal with the challenges of maintaining mental health. Here are a few things that I was reminded of while watching Pixar's Inside Out.

there are no shortcuts to happiness/healing--abstract reasoning, imagination station, train, etc.
Be patient. 

the speed at which the islands fall apart seems shocking; it really happens slowly and then all at once (you don’t notice something’s wrong until the all-at-once happens). Islands can be rebuilt. Don't lose hope.

pay attention to what emotions are missing from headquarters. why? What do you need to do to get them back?

when sadness starts touching all your memories, dig a little deeper into why (stress? are you allowing yourself to feel? pay attention to your emotions.)

there is a place for sadness (encouraging imaginary friend & waking up Riley). Don’t disregard it. Riley's parents didn't know what she was feeling because she hid her sadness, assuming that she needed to be happy for her parents' sake. Sadness has an important role to play, but ensure you have support systems around you like Riley’s hockey team, parents, and friends. It’s okay to have core memories that are sad. 

Which core memories have shaped you?
What are your primary islands? Have you let any slip lately? What do you need to start to rebuild and heal?


Heart-song echoes.

When an album expresses your heart better than you can.


Heart strings.

Red dirt. Mango trees. Bougainvillia. Skinny cows. Percussion-based music. Heat of the sun. Dragging time. Heavy watered air. Boats. Worn taxis. Friendly people. Flat houses/rooftops. Palm trees. Burning field. The lifestyle. The friendships that could have been. The ocean. Sweet fresh fruit. Community. Lazy days. Transportation. Weathered smiling people. Poverty. Richness. Star gazing. Rock quarry. Lizards. Geckos. Cockcroaches. Slat windows. Antivolt. Potholed-roads. Gravol. Fields. Lush landscape. 

Flowing falls. Cold showers. Simplicity. Lack of vanity. Clothes lined on ground to dry. Family. Card games. Steak au sauce crème. Street food. Aleco. Pizza loaf. Stable. Freddy. LeRoy. Belle. Kerrianne. Cherise. Cori. Older mentors. Blister sisters. Delayed planes. Pool outtings. Internet cafés. Guesthouse. Barrels. Peppered KD. Driver ants. Dalaba. Rollerblading at airport. River outtings. Termite hill. Guns. Barbed wire. Evacuation. The islands. IFF. Yamosoukro. Medicals. Lice checks. Dining hall. Noon rest. PE. Kickball. Petite pateau. Upper and lower court. Sunday packages. Emails. Pippi. Phillipe. Guinea pigs. Braided hair. Mystery meals. Book with B for M&D. Couch potato cake. Solar panels. Fragmented movies. Computer fans. Chips challenge. Arabic tea. 

Sunday movies. Saturday nintendo. White glove test. 500 franc Mars bars. Aminata. Mamadi. Howa. Bolocada. Huts. Garbage pits. Panye. Peanut sauce. Markets. Halfbuilt concrete boxes. Tile. Mold scented walls. Gated walls. Overly stuffed bikes/taxis. Coconuts. Lizards. Snakes. Tiny frog hunting. Pretend fort building. Pouring rain runnings. Toll roofs. Banquets. Musicals. Miss Epp. "Aunt" and "Uncle." Reeses. Aunt Janice. Larry Pixie. Polly pockets. Pet shop. Ants. Dorms. African culture week. Sing 'n whale/wail. Chapel. Sunday school. Papaya pill swallowings. Bible baseball. Pilgrims progress. Dog bone pillow. Napkin folding. Scorpions. Bantums. Beavers. Bees. Bethesda. Bethany. Baraka. River crossing/barge. Spiked security stops. Malaria. Worms. Meat sticks.

Tropical country. The trigger. I need to grieve. I grieve. For what I lost. For what I left behind, expecting to return.